Will I ever get any sleep?

I like my life. It's hard and I struggle a lot, wish to cry a lot and laugh even more. I love my besties. We had our version of the sister circle/slumber party a day ago and it was evidence of al the reasons why I need them in my life. They are truthful and caring. Loyal and real. I couldn't find better best friends. I honestly believe that there is no other group of friends who have a relationship like ours. They are my rock.

As you know I've been feeling really great about 2009. I felt that I've come through the darkness that was 2008 and emerged into the light. But it always gets worse before it gets better. Some of my actions have been not only hurtful to myself but hurtful to the people I care about and love because I trust easily. It is the fifth day of a new year and already pain has entered my life.

It will not deter me from my goals. I'm okay with solitude. I have my best friends. I have those who know me and know that the relationship I have with them is pure. I'll do my best to salvage relationships and save people's feelings but its 2009.....ain't no time for that sad shit.

Let's see how this week goes. I have an internship orientation on Thursday. Wish me luck.